a water suite (keep formatting)
Published 13 September 2021
ocean/saltwater/waitī/mulli tahnee
where i’m from the sand is cold at night, the shells empty, grey
cloud scudding like
the irewaru the spirit voices
on the shore
tender salt, gentle rush of foam
no explorer can hold enough breath for where i’m from
fathoms and fathoms deep
i have heard. i have danced
narrative after narrative
have heard it sung
have done the singing
our shadows are nuclear
our gods can swim
‘never turn your back on the ocean.’ i hear this
everytime i have saltwater up my nose, down the back of my throat, making me cough;
everytime i have sand in my togs, or socks; everytime
i place the smallest of cateyes in my pocket and whisper a karakia. i hear my mother.
hear fear, not as tremor but as the roar of a wave
never turn your back to things that swallow
sea, midden, archive, men or the women they hollow
matariki is an internal time, when
the bounty for the year is told by the brightness and sureness of the sky siblings,
when those who have passed in the year gone are swept up by the great waka,
kua whetūrangitia, made stars.
it is cold, time for gatherings by fires and sharing stories, the time
that the sun shacks up with his winter wife – hinetakurua,
hineraumati is the summer one. this is an arrangement the women had. half a year off is genius
and sustainable
now is the time for gawura to remind the sea of the song that made it
is time for us to sing shore to shore
in the summer of my always childhood, the beach is hot sand on fire during the day
we went to collect shellfish with our toes, or check nets
we didn’t go to lie down on towels. Nor cover ourselves in coconut.
i sent messages across the ocean stuffed into coke bottles. i wrote
‘i’m being held captive in a concrete tower in foxton. send help immediately. aotearoa, 1989.’
because i believed in story, i believed someone might get them